Change

I've realized that I missed a HUGE idea on Friday, it was my 48th post, and my song list was gonna be 48 songs! I'm so disappointed with myself. Anyway, I didn't post yesterday because I was at Eleanor's all day having an amazing time (thank you Eleanor!). But today as you may have noticed, I'm posting about change.

Currently, I'm sitting here in jeans and a watch (and other essentials, those are the two main ones), I haven't been known to wear either very much in the past. I'm starving myself (I shouldn't feel starved because all I've done is cut down to the three essential meals a day, no snacks). Also, I start jogging tomorrow, after my last exam.

I guess everyone is wondering why I'm doing all this, which is fair enough. It's no secret that I need to lose weight and it's also well known that I lack serious style. Truth is, I was never really bothered, but now that I'm sixteen, It's about time I concentrated on myself for my own benefit, I deserve it.

Another thing, I'm probably going to get Facebook when I can be bothered to fill everything out and whatever, so I can keep in touch with everyone I'm losing from school. Obviously msn and my blog will be more important than Facebook, but it's about time I got it.

So there you go. I'm not sure how it will effect me or how fast I can lose weight, we'll just have to wait and see :D

Getting the message

I'm beginning the think that it's time for another change. Poker WAS a good idea, but i think that the tournament we're having could be the end of it. I need another exit, my life is starting to crack again, with this whole getting the message business. I was lied to, I don't like being lied to, but i won't have to do much about it, it'll take care of itself.

I'm sure whoever reads my blog who doesn't know about this mysterious ex girlfriend of mine who i never really talk about should probably know now that she's back on the scene. She's this girl i started dating on September 26th 2007 (I'm good with dates), in the following 14 months there were many good times and bad times. But since she ditched me (January 3rd 2009) i slowly learnt of all of the lies i was told and how much i was used. She lied to me impulsively, she used me, and she cheated on me (twice). So there you go, the mystery is revealed, it took me four months to get over it and I guess i need to keep telling myself this because chances are she wants to get back with me again. So what's the plan? Eyes on someone else, perfect. Turns out my best chances are to not have relationships at all, because then i wont be lied to, wont be used, wont be hurt. Abstinence for everyone! Yayyy!