Lately, my life's been great, I've been seeing everyone, having great outings, just generally having fun. But the little things are starting to get to me, and there are a lot of them...even while i type, my wrist thingie's getting caught in the keyboard.
Saturday was great, but at the end of the day, I missed TWO buses, is this some kind of sign? And in the past week alone, I've been accused of being gay, having a split personality and having feelings for one of my friends (by THREE seperate people). Is it because I'm a bad person? If so many people think so many things about me then does that mean they think that I keep secrets? or that I'm a liar?
I know I used to be a bad person, but I don't know if I still am or not. Someone really needs to tell me because I'm getting really paranoid about it.
I've been asking "Why me?" a lot lately. I guess it's just because I don't understand. If people think i have a split personality, does that make me crazy? And if my friends think I'm crazy, why are they still there for me? Someone please answer this, because I just don't get it anymore.
Buses, Lottery Tickets and Tennis
I set my alarm for 9:30 today, especially so i could go see Michael, yet at 12:30, I was woken by a phone call...
It was Emma and Karolina, asking if i wanted to go to gym. I was still in bed, so I went with "no" :p After that, I got up and went looking for a bus. I missed it...
Is it just me or is it that when you're only with one person at a bus stop, the other person is disabled in some way? I learnt this today, don't ask. Anyway, I eventually got to Michael's and I resided there until 7pm, during this time we attempted to purchase a lottery ticket and seriously failed. Only one of us knew how to fill it in. At seven I received ANOTHER phone call...
Emma and Karolina again, wanting me to go play tennis with them, sounded pretty decent (no one's ever asked me before :P). After missing my second bus of the day, I somehow managed to get to my second destination of the day.
OK, I'm not sure who won tennis, we lost count. I guess we can call it a practise session :p We then sat around and relaxed and sang and stuff (don't ask). Normally i'd explain all of this and actually make it sound interesting, but it's 2am, and I just wanna get it posted.
In short, it was a stressy afternoon, and a really relaxing evening. Michael, If ever you read my blog, I'm sorry that i abandoned you, I can't really give an excuse, maybe I'm just a twat, but I AM sorry. I had fun today, it was totally worth it. Thanks to everyone mentioned (that's Michael, Emma and Karolina), it was a good Saturday thanks to you guys =D
It was Emma and Karolina, asking if i wanted to go to gym. I was still in bed, so I went with "no" :p After that, I got up and went looking for a bus. I missed it...
Is it just me or is it that when you're only with one person at a bus stop, the other person is disabled in some way? I learnt this today, don't ask. Anyway, I eventually got to Michael's and I resided there until 7pm, during this time we attempted to purchase a lottery ticket and seriously failed. Only one of us knew how to fill it in. At seven I received ANOTHER phone call...
Emma and Karolina again, wanting me to go play tennis with them, sounded pretty decent (no one's ever asked me before :P). After missing my second bus of the day, I somehow managed to get to my second destination of the day.
OK, I'm not sure who won tennis, we lost count. I guess we can call it a practise session :p We then sat around and relaxed and sang and stuff (don't ask). Normally i'd explain all of this and actually make it sound interesting, but it's 2am, and I just wanna get it posted.
In short, it was a stressy afternoon, and a really relaxing evening. Michael, If ever you read my blog, I'm sorry that i abandoned you, I can't really give an excuse, maybe I'm just a twat, but I AM sorry. I had fun today, it was totally worth it. Thanks to everyone mentioned (that's Michael, Emma and Karolina), it was a good Saturday thanks to you guys =D
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Sunday, 24 May 2009
Top 5 Songs (Week Starting 18/05/09)
Labels:
3OH3,
alkaline trio,
crash romeo,
music,
relient K,
the all-american rejects,
Top 5
Ok, I think this is more of a tunes than lyrics week, so stick with me on this one. It's not been that much of a music week, I've sort of been trying to devise a rough idea of my top 100 songs of all time in my head, for a blog anniversary or something. However, this is what I've got for this week:
5. Crash Romeo - Actions Not Words
Ok, actions not words is NOT a perfect song, I admit that now. The song doesn't really catch me much. BUT, there is this one line that hits me really hard. It goes "what've I done? What have I done to me?" I guess it kinda illustrates this whole ex situation (she tried speaking to me again yesterday) and what I became while i was with her...
4. Alkaline Trio - This Could Be Love
Alkaline Trio practically introducted me to rock, with a song called time to waste. It was one of the first rock songs i ever got into and I still love it. This could be love has this sinister appeal to it that manages to attract me :p
Good lyrics: "Step one -- slit my throat
Step two -- play in my blood
Step three -- cover me in dirty sheets and run laughing out of the house"
3. The All American Rejects - The Last Song
Three years ago, I found a song called "my paper heart", I fell in love with it, and borrowed The all american rejects' first two albums. I still think their first is their best, and this is one of the songs on it, it's also one of my fave music videos :p Why do i like it? nice lyrics, steady beat, amazing instrumental. Sorted.
Good Lyrics: "You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room
To make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up, let me know"
"[Chorus]
As I go, remember
All the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch
And I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song"
2. 3OH!3 - Colorado Sunshine
It's like some kind of techno, I think. What I know about it is that it has a really catchy beat :p and the chorus is catchy too, even though the lyrics to it aren't perfect. Stick with it if ever you listen to it because the intro isn't that great, it get's good after the first verse.
Good Lyrics: "And if i had something to say to you i'd whisper it softly,
kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
hold you through the night and watch that colorado sunrise."
"and as long as it's okay with you i think i'll stay right here.
i got no where to go cuz where to go is up to you, dear.
happy as a clam i see the glimmer in your eyes.
hold you through the night and watch that colorado sunrise."
1. Relient K - In love With The 80s
I love this song, the tune catches me so easily and the lyrics are delightfully punky :p it also mentions the prom a lot, so i guess it relates back to that. Apart from that, it's awesome =D
"So it was jeremy in 1983,
In his ocean pacific t,
Who got a bloody knee,
On his skateboard,
In the halfpipe,
In the backyard,
That tuesday night.
And I'm only gonna pierce my left ear,
And I've been working on this mustache all summer long,
And my favorite band will always be tears for fears,
And I'm gonna wear a pink tux to the prom
Cuttin class through the next four window,
He's drivin fast cause he never did a thing slow,
And I look up to my big bro cuz in the eighties
all the ladies grabbed his hand
and couldn't let go.
And I'm only gonna pierce my left ear,
And I've been working on this mustache all summer long,
And my favorite band will always be tears for fears,
And I'm gonna wear a pink tux to the prom, a pink tux to the prom.
Do, do, do-do, do, do, Pink tux to the prom,
Do, do, do-do, do, do, Pink tux to the prom
I am gonna to wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care, what can possibly go wrong?
When you're the president of the breakfast club,
And you're not hesitant to fall in love,
To fall in love, to throw it away,To fall in love with the eighties.
I am gonna wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care, what can possibly go wrong?
I am gonna wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care 'cause you threw it away to fall in love
With the eighties..
Do, do, do-do, do
Do, do, do-do, do
Do, do, do-do, do"
5. Crash Romeo - Actions Not Words
Ok, actions not words is NOT a perfect song, I admit that now. The song doesn't really catch me much. BUT, there is this one line that hits me really hard. It goes "what've I done? What have I done to me?" I guess it kinda illustrates this whole ex situation (she tried speaking to me again yesterday) and what I became while i was with her...
4. Alkaline Trio - This Could Be Love
Alkaline Trio practically introducted me to rock, with a song called time to waste. It was one of the first rock songs i ever got into and I still love it. This could be love has this sinister appeal to it that manages to attract me :p
Good lyrics: "Step one -- slit my throat
Step two -- play in my blood
Step three -- cover me in dirty sheets and run laughing out of the house"
3. The All American Rejects - The Last Song
Three years ago, I found a song called "my paper heart", I fell in love with it, and borrowed The all american rejects' first two albums. I still think their first is their best, and this is one of the songs on it, it's also one of my fave music videos :p Why do i like it? nice lyrics, steady beat, amazing instrumental. Sorted.
Good Lyrics: "You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room
To make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up, let me know"
"[Chorus]
As I go, remember
All the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch
And I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song"
2. 3OH!3 - Colorado Sunshine
It's like some kind of techno, I think. What I know about it is that it has a really catchy beat :p and the chorus is catchy too, even though the lyrics to it aren't perfect. Stick with it if ever you listen to it because the intro isn't that great, it get's good after the first verse.
Good Lyrics: "And if i had something to say to you i'd whisper it softly,
kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
hold you through the night and watch that colorado sunrise."
"and as long as it's okay with you i think i'll stay right here.
i got no where to go cuz where to go is up to you, dear.
happy as a clam i see the glimmer in your eyes.
hold you through the night and watch that colorado sunrise."
1. Relient K - In love With The 80s
I love this song, the tune catches me so easily and the lyrics are delightfully punky :p it also mentions the prom a lot, so i guess it relates back to that. Apart from that, it's awesome =D
"So it was jeremy in 1983,
In his ocean pacific t,
Who got a bloody knee,
On his skateboard,
In the halfpipe,
In the backyard,
That tuesday night.
And I'm only gonna pierce my left ear,
And I've been working on this mustache all summer long,
And my favorite band will always be tears for fears,
And I'm gonna wear a pink tux to the prom
Cuttin class through the next four window,
He's drivin fast cause he never did a thing slow,
And I look up to my big bro cuz in the eighties
all the ladies grabbed his hand
and couldn't let go.
And I'm only gonna pierce my left ear,
And I've been working on this mustache all summer long,
And my favorite band will always be tears for fears,
And I'm gonna wear a pink tux to the prom, a pink tux to the prom.
Do, do, do-do, do, do, Pink tux to the prom,
Do, do, do-do, do, do, Pink tux to the prom
I am gonna to wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care, what can possibly go wrong?
When you're the president of the breakfast club,
And you're not hesitant to fall in love,
To fall in love, to throw it away,To fall in love with the eighties.
I am gonna wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care, what can possibly go wrong?
I am gonna wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care 'cause you threw it away to fall in love
With the eighties..
Do, do, do-do, do
Do, do, do-do, do
Do, do, do-do, do"
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Friday, 22 May 2009
Hobbies
I think I've found my new hobby. Stay tuned for Adam's cooking corner :p
I love cooking, but I never thought of turning it into a hobby, made omelettes today (really adventurous i know), will start experimenting now i've got the hang of it. I'm like the evil scientist of the catering world (and creator of "bessie", the marmite and pickle sandwich!).
On the random side of things, i found this picture of my uncle from new year's day. Now you see where i get it from :p He's awesome, and I feel sorry for my Auntie (left) who has to put up with him all the time. Classic.
In other news: Stay tuned for prom pics (when eleanor finally gets them to me!!!)
Preview:
(Sorry, I'm not the best looking cupcake in the bakery :p)
I love cooking, but I never thought of turning it into a hobby, made omelettes today (really adventurous i know), will start experimenting now i've got the hang of it. I'm like the evil scientist of the catering world (and creator of "bessie", the marmite and pickle sandwich!).
On the random side of things, i found this picture of my uncle from new year's day. Now you see where i get it from :p He's awesome, and I feel sorry for my Auntie (left) who has to put up with him all the time. Classic.In other news: Stay tuned for prom pics (when eleanor finally gets them to me!!!)
Preview:
(Sorry, I'm not the best looking cupcake in the bakery :p)
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Tuesday, 19 May 2009
Getting the message
Labels:
Abstinence,
Change,
ex,
Lies
I'm beginning the think that it's time for another change. Poker WAS a good idea, but i think that the tournament we're having could be the end of it. I need another exit, my life is starting to crack again, with this whole getting the message business. I was lied to, I don't like being lied to, but i won't have to do much about it, it'll take care of itself.
I'm sure whoever reads my blog who doesn't know about this mysterious ex girlfriend of mine who i never really talk about should probably know now that she's back on the scene. She's this girl i started dating on September 26th 2007 (I'm good with dates), in the following 14 months there were many good times and bad times. But since she ditched me (January 3rd 2009) i slowly learnt of all of the lies i was told and how much i was used. She lied to me impulsively, she used me, and she cheated on me (twice). So there you go, the mystery is revealed, it took me four months to get over it and I guess i need to keep telling myself this because chances are she wants to get back with me again. So what's the plan? Eyes on someone else, perfect. Turns out my best chances are to not have relationships at all, because then i wont be lied to, wont be used, wont be hurt. Abstinence for everyone! Yayyy!
I'm sure whoever reads my blog who doesn't know about this mysterious ex girlfriend of mine who i never really talk about should probably know now that she's back on the scene. She's this girl i started dating on September 26th 2007 (I'm good with dates), in the following 14 months there were many good times and bad times. But since she ditched me (January 3rd 2009) i slowly learnt of all of the lies i was told and how much i was used. She lied to me impulsively, she used me, and she cheated on me (twice). So there you go, the mystery is revealed, it took me four months to get over it and I guess i need to keep telling myself this because chances are she wants to get back with me again. So what's the plan? Eyes on someone else, perfect. Turns out my best chances are to not have relationships at all, because then i wont be lied to, wont be used, wont be hurt. Abstinence for everyone! Yayyy!
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Sunday, 17 May 2009
Why we should rename this blog "Adam's Depressing Thoughts"
Labels:
blog,
friendships,
madina lake,
worry
Last night brought back ALL of my paranoia about losing people, not even madina lake can stop it now, I'm beginning to doubt my friendships with people more than ever, especially those that wont be forced to go to the same school as me next year.
I guess i can get away with posting this because barely anyone reads this anymore (no one's commented in like, three weeks), and well, last night was the first time i really doubted a few of my friendships, maybe i just overestimated people, maybe it's just me, maybe i'm just being paranoid again. I guess we'll have to find out.
I also learnt that i took a few friendships for granted too, and as much as i want to fix that, i'm probably going to lose them too.
I know i'm safe with everyone who's staying on next year, and i'm really grateful for that. But i'm scared of losing a few people, and it is only a few. What do i do?
I guess i can get away with posting this because barely anyone reads this anymore (no one's commented in like, three weeks), and well, last night was the first time i really doubted a few of my friendships, maybe i just overestimated people, maybe it's just me, maybe i'm just being paranoid again. I guess we'll have to find out.
I also learnt that i took a few friendships for granted too, and as much as i want to fix that, i'm probably going to lose them too.
I know i'm safe with everyone who's staying on next year, and i'm really grateful for that. But i'm scared of losing a few people, and it is only a few. What do i do?
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Saturday, 16 May 2009
Why Tonight?!
I'm posting now because I'm confused. I'm really annoyed how my life has these stupid twists. It's fucking unreal. So, story time kids:
I forgot about one element of prom, the waiters. They were year 10 students. Who's in year 10, that's right, my ex...
I was pissed off, i still am, but i decided to ignore it, fine as always.
After a well needed toilet trip, i was on my way back to the hall, when she called out to me...
She wanted to say sorry for everything she's done to me and whatever.
I'm confused, I'm annoyed and I don't understand why tonight, and why me...
So, what do I do??? I know that the one thing i'd never, ever do is get back with her, just in case people are afraid, I've moved on.
To be honest, I guess I'm kind of afraid. I just want things to stop happening.
Apart from that, prom was fantastic, I'll post more about it when i get the pictures =D
I forgot about one element of prom, the waiters. They were year 10 students. Who's in year 10, that's right, my ex...
I was pissed off, i still am, but i decided to ignore it, fine as always.
After a well needed toilet trip, i was on my way back to the hall, when she called out to me...
She wanted to say sorry for everything she's done to me and whatever.
I'm confused, I'm annoyed and I don't understand why tonight, and why me...
So, what do I do??? I know that the one thing i'd never, ever do is get back with her, just in case people are afraid, I've moved on.
To be honest, I guess I'm kind of afraid. I just want things to stop happening.
Apart from that, prom was fantastic, I'll post more about it when i get the pictures =D
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