Getting the message

I'm beginning the think that it's time for another change. Poker WAS a good idea, but i think that the tournament we're having could be the end of it. I need another exit, my life is starting to crack again, with this whole getting the message business. I was lied to, I don't like being lied to, but i won't have to do much about it, it'll take care of itself.

I'm sure whoever reads my blog who doesn't know about this mysterious ex girlfriend of mine who i never really talk about should probably know now that she's back on the scene. She's this girl i started dating on September 26th 2007 (I'm good with dates), in the following 14 months there were many good times and bad times. But since she ditched me (January 3rd 2009) i slowly learnt of all of the lies i was told and how much i was used. She lied to me impulsively, she used me, and she cheated on me (twice). So there you go, the mystery is revealed, it took me four months to get over it and I guess i need to keep telling myself this because chances are she wants to get back with me again. So what's the plan? Eyes on someone else, perfect. Turns out my best chances are to not have relationships at all, because then i wont be lied to, wont be used, wont be hurt. Abstinence for everyone! Yayyy!

Why Tonight?!

I'm posting now because I'm confused. I'm really annoyed how my life has these stupid twists. It's fucking unreal. So, story time kids:

I forgot about one element of prom, the waiters. They were year 10 students. Who's in year 10, that's right, my ex...

I was pissed off, i still am, but i decided to ignore it, fine as always.

After a well needed toilet trip, i was on my way back to the hall, when she called out to me...

She wanted to say sorry for everything she's done to me and whatever.

I'm confused, I'm annoyed and I don't understand why tonight, and why me...

So, what do I do??? I know that the one thing i'd never, ever do is get back with her, just in case people are afraid, I've moved on.

To be honest, I guess I'm kind of afraid. I just want things to stop happening.

Apart from that, prom was fantastic, I'll post more about it when i get the pictures =D